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A person who has experienced sexual violence may become involved with the criminal justice system. This includes coming in contact with law enforcement and the legal system, which includes police officers, detectives, attorneys, victim advocates, military personnel, and judges.
There are reasons to report an act of sexual violence even if a conviction does not result. In addition to punishing the perpetrator, reporting the crime can be an empowering experience. Reporting may keep the perpetrator from committing another crime of sexual violence. In addition, as more crimes are reported, the epidemic of rape becomes more understood and less tolerated.
It is important to be aware that some survivors who report an act of sexual violence may feel emotionally overwhelmed and/or may not have positive experiences with law enforcement. It is essential for survivors to remember that it was not their fault and there is no reason to be ashamed. A crime was committed.
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Stories
Anonymous from Temple, TX|
10-October-08
For three years now I have had an ex-boyfriend and ex-husband that know each other and have on a continuous basis broke in my house and stalk and threaten me. On Mon. I was raped and then raped again by the police dept.. I think the reason why the police won't help is because there are some drug dealing cops in this town. Their friends all harass me calling me whore, child molester, I'm screwing my dogs but they get the respect of the police and I don't. The police treat me like I'm some stupid idiot. I realize because my dogs are freaked out when I get home that is not a case make but these people know exactly what they can get away with and they do everything but do bodily harm until Oct.6. My ex-boyfriend broke into my house and sexually assaulted me while I was sleeping and stole my wallet. I called the police and told the police officer that my wallet got stolen and I was assaulted. He just looked at me. I told him I was going to the hospital to get checked out but I couldn't bring myself to go. Even if it is an ex, it still makes you feel stripped of dignity and dirty, dirty, dirty, dirty. But, the officer never made a report just like in the past three years they haven't. So, I got refused a rape exam and got told to go talk to the officer tomorrow. How does one deal with that. I have told police about this man when I saw him in my house and they still did nothing. Now, they refuse to take my calls at the station, 911 won't send any officers,
I bought an alarm and they may show up 20 minutes later. The person that put in my alarm knows my ex and now they refuse to come and fix it because of the drug dealer next door. So what do I do. I bought a gun and I was talking to a police officer and he wanted to know where the gun was and I told him where it was hidden and someone lifted my garbage liner up to steal it and this cop was the only one that knew where it was. I have never been in trouble with the law and hopefully I won't have to.
Anonymous from Buffalo, NY|
25-July-07
I hope this is the right heading under which my story belongs and I thank this website for the chance to tell my story, because I have never really had a chance to speak up and tell what happened to me and what it means for women.
I am currently a Junior at the State University of New York and I was assaulted the first month of my freshman year. He was a friend of mine at the time and he called me at 3 in the morning claiming he had been in a fight and could I go over there and see if he was okay. Living in the dorms, it was an easy trip, and he didn’t lie about the fight, he had a black eye and all. He asked me to lie down next to him in his bed, and I agreed. It quickly became clear that comfort was not his desire, and he began to touch me. I told him no and removed his hand, thinking a quick good reality check would mute his attempt. I was wrong. He held me there and proceeded to use his hands to grope and penetrate me. He finally let go, angry that I was fighting him, and shoved me into the hallway screaming at me that I was a whore and a bitch and everything else horrible he could think of.
I didn’t want to call the police because I didn’t even realize that what happened to me was assault. I called my friend and he knew immediately that something had happened. He then in turn excused himself and called another friend in a different language and told her to call the campus police, and she did. They arrived shortly and I was in short, furious. They tried to get me to tell them his name but I refused, I thought that he would get mad and that I was making a big deal and he would come after me. The police officer finally looked me in the face and asked, "Do you want this to happen to somebody else?" I knew the answer in that moment, and what I had to do. I told him everything, and then went to the hospital for a rape kit.
The hospital sucked, but there was a rape counselor there who gave me new clothes to wear, which I really appreciated. It was uncomfortable and long. Some 8 hours after the incident, now near noon the next day and me having not slept, I left the hospital with campus police. They didn’t let me go home and insisted I go to the police station and rehash my whole story then. I was tired and exhausted and I just wanted to go back home, but a very official looking man took notes as I told my story, then they brought me back to the dorms. There was a restraining order put in place which meant he could not come onto my floor in the building and the case was sent to the school judiciary office.
Banning him from my floor did nothing, we lived in buildings right next to each other and had to share a cafeteria, buses, offices, everything. I didn’t eat in the cafeteria, I didn’t walk outside, I felt confined to my room and my friends, but that didn’t keep him away from me either. He didn’t care about the restraining order, he came onto my floor to smirk at me time and time again. I would report it to my hall director who told me to tell him when he was there. Now, keep in mind, I had to walk down to get him and then we would walk back up and he wouldn’t be there, so apparently he couldn't do anything.
One thing that upset me is that he was still living where he had been, on campus, near me, and no one knew about the attack. This man, this danger, nothing was being done to protect other girls from having this happen to them. I meanwhile was told a few horrifying details which to this day infuriate me. He had had a history of not taking rejection well and there was an incident in the dorms over the summer, in a special program that takes on freshmen for a month in the summer. They already knew he was a problem, a threat, and their failure to act put me at risk. Then there was the night that it happened. His neighbor two doors down told me he heard me, heard me screaming and us fighting, that we had woken him up. He had only heard what happened in the hall and was sorry he didn’t help, he didn’t think it was his business. The police never talked to him, never knocked on his door. If I said that I was screaming, why didn’t they ask the people that lived next to him to verify my story?
His harassment and the University doing nothing continued all that semester, and I moved off campus to get away from him. The judiciary office never talked to me, never called me, nothing. I called them to enquire about my case and why they weren’t doing anything, I thought in a calm way, and I was told to "call back when I was less emotional." I told them that if someone was calling them about a matter like this and they weren’t emotional, then they were doing what they suspected me of doing, lying.
Then I got a letter.
In March I got a letter about the assault that took place in September concerning the outcome of my case. They found him guilty of misconduct in the residence halls and sentenced him to 15 hours community service, I was devastated. That was a joke, to him as well as to me. Nothing had come of it, nothing happened to him, and I still see him on campus, and he still smiles at me knowing what he got away with. So I would like to say for a brief and perhaps uninformative moment, "Fuck You UB, I am worth more than 15 hours!!!" I was told that because my case had been processed through the campus that I couldn’t take it to the police, and that their decision was final. I was assaulted twice, once by the man who I thought was a new friend, and once by the University who took absolutely no steps to either protect me or to punish him. If there was a happy ending it would be that because of this I took a women’s studies class the next semester, and I have since switched majors to Women’s Studies from English and become a full time feminist. I don't want this to happen to any more women, I don't want this to happen to my daughter.
Hanna Benney from St. Ives, Cornwall,
UK |
15-May-06 When I was fifteen I was raped by two men on my church grounds;
the memories haunt me.
I had been at a friend's party in his garden backing onto the church and
had had an argument with my friend's boyfriend. I'd gone to a corner to
get some space, and he dragged my over the hedge onto the grounds. I was
quite shocked but thought he just wanted to continue arguing in private;
it wasn't until he pushed me to the ground that I started to worry. I'm quite
a strong independent girl, but being in that situation fighting to get
his hands off my neck and out of my knickers scared me, because suddenly
I was so weak. As I clawed at his wrist he bashed my head against the
ground. Then raped me. After shouting no for a while I gave up
struggling to close my self away inside of myself. When he started to
get off me, I tried to scrabble away, but suddenly there was another guy
laughing. The sound was so sickening. He tossed the first guy something,
then raped me as well. The rapist had sold me on for drugs. They left
after slapping me around a bit and I staggered back to the friend's where I was staying. She insisted on calling the police while I
vomited, and shook. The police came, and very lazily did their 'duty'
then made me wait six hours for a medical examination. The police's
involvement was nearly as horrific as the rape. It was topped when one
of them said that silly slutty girls didn't win rape cases. This caused
me to hide away, if this is their view what would others think. I didn't
press charges.
A friend had me take the morning after pill; however I still became
pregnant, which made things harder as I struggled to continue living. I
didn't know what to do.
At twelve weeks I lost the baby, and my heart broke, even though I don't
know how I would have coped if the baby had looked like one of them, I
still mourned it.
I don't know why this happened to me, and my life still has frequent
times when I want to hide away and wallow in my depression and despair.
But instead I put on my mask, and fill my life to a hectic stress, to
avoid thinking, for it is then that I think about the rape and my baby.
I still suffer from panic attacks and hate being in big groups or areas
with lots of people behind me; I find myself suspicious of and
distrusting older men I used to know and trust.
Rape has changed my life so much and I am only now just slowly managing
to get my life back on track, perhaps it will come with time, it's only
been 10 months.
Tina
from Northant, U.K. |
11-December-05
Most people would’ve
heard about the case of the
Camden Ripper in UK in 2003
who was jailed for killing
three sex workers in his flat.
What many people may still
not know is that there are
also four survivors that Anthony
Hardy is alleged to have raped
and assaulted and one of which
is me.
Since 2003 l have been active
in campaigning for justice
and have hit many a brick
wall in doing so. Only in
the past few weeks have I
been able to get support for
the effect of what he did
to me. Due to the long NHS
waiting list which does not
help me overcome the attempt
on my life as he raped me.
What gets my goat even to
this day 3 years on is that
he still has not been charged
of what he did to me and the
other three survivors. Only
the other day I found out
reasons behind the Crown Prosecution
Service here in UK not handling
our case correctly, that they
had put out their question
whether charges should be
brought against the Camden
Ripper to what they say "lengthy
consultations took place with
various bodies after receiving
police file".
Well now I plan to write to
the CPS asking for a review
on my case in light of them
failing in their duty of care.
I made a formal complaint
to the Met police over their
handling of my case also.
On 13/12/05 outside St. Luke’s
Hospital in North London UK,
I will be campaigning and
highlighting the new legal
points of my case to bring
a civil action against the
NHS trust where their doctors
deemed him to be a risk and
danger to women but still
let him go from their care
at this hospital only weeks
before be went on to commit
his crimes to me and murder
three women.
The CICA UK criminal injury
payout system is now taking
over a year to deal with (the
government department likes
taking their time in dealing
with cases like mine) to see
whether I am able to get compensation
for what I suffered. I am
having to pay out lawyers’
fees of whatever I am awarded,
which I do not think is fair
and the London bombing victims
are able to get lawyers for
free to help them with the
same CICA claims for them.
Now I hear in the press the
CICA system will change again.
My family life is up and down
and my personal life a roller
coaster. I am still not able
to sleep well and am trying
to overcome my fears. I have
my cats to help keep a smile
on my face and help me realize
life is not all bad and in
2006 SOS UK will hopefully
get sponsors for a DVD to
get the message to end murder
and rape to all sex workers.
I was qualified masseur at
the time and now I campaign
for SOS UK. www.freewebs.com/voiceofsexworker
is the webpage to gain support
in my case and others. So
really for now my spelling
may not be good here but I
felt it is important to get
my story told, thanks tina
CPL
Dennis from Boone, IA |
30-January-04
I had just turned 20 and I
was on an AT with my National
Guard Unit. On the way back
from our AT in Minnesota my
Military Vehicle broke down.
The other soldier and myself
waited with the First Sergeant
for the maintenance truck
to reach us. Our vehicle was
completely shot so one of
us had to go with First Sergeant
and the other with the two
guys in the Maintenance truck.
I went with the two guys because
I knew them and we were friends
so I figured we would talk
and it would be a okay trip
home. I was so tired and exhausted
from being in a hummer that
over heated and then being
in the sun for two hours waiting
that I feel asleep. When I
woke up Sergeant F. had his
hand in my crotch I was horrified
I did not know what to do.
I was stuck in this truck
with them for at east another
two hours. If they thought
I was awake and knew I was
scared that he and the other
Sergeant would do worse because
they would have nothing to
lose. So I kept my eyes closed
and pretended to wake up slowly
and squirmed away from Sergeant
F. Thankfully it worked. I
made them pull over at the
next stop to use the restroom
and I vomited for ten minutes.
Not only were those two guys
supposed to be my friends
they were supposed to be friends
with my fiancé. I waited
three months before I told
anyone in my chain of command.
While they were investigating
what happened Sergeant F.
was put in for an ARCOM for
his service during that AT.
At the end of the investigation
I had left my AGR job with
an E6 slot because I could
no longer work with him coming
into my office every day and
standing behind me so close
that I could feel him breathe
on me. I left it all and then
my Brigade officer whom I
had more respect for than
any person I had ever meet
in the military told me over
the phone that because I was
asleep and never said he couldn’t
touch me that what Sergeant
F. did was perfectly alright.
Two and a half years later
and I still do not know who
to be more mad at: Sergeant
F. for doing it, or the Colonel
for saying it was okay.
Melinda
from Sturgis, MI |
01-February-03
Hello I'm a mother of 2 children
who have been molested by
the same man. We got a call
on 1/28/03 from our prosecutor's
office saying he will only
serve one year. My girls were
11 and 13 when this happened
to them. The molester took
a psyche. Evaluation and I
was told it came back he was
a danger to society, and was
not a good candidate for rehabilitation.
So you see why this is devastating
news to my family. I'm sorry
to be bothering you with this
but I dont know who to turn
to. If someone can get back
to me on this matter as soon
as possible... I talked to
Doug F. the prosecutor and
when I stated I was not happy
with the plea I was told that
because when this all first
started and my child was scared
to go to jail and couldn't
testify that it is now a done
deal. He then also hung up
on me when I said I would
go public. I also found out
his phyc.evaluation is not
in our file.
Debi
Castle from Tripler, Hawaii
|
04-October-02
This story needs to get out!
Women need to know!
This is my story--sadly enough!
My daughter who is a heart
patient, I escorted back to
Hawaii to help her prepare
her house for her husband's
homecoming from the "war".
Also she was pregnant with
her second child. On June
25th 2002 my husband (who
had come over a few days prior)
and I and our 21 month old
granddaughter escorted my
daughter to her usual weekly
monitoring at anti-partem.
Ashley my granddaughter was
being a little snit so I told
my husband I would take her
out front and I would sit
out there and smoke and wait
for him and Evy to come out.
Ashley in her stroller and
I got into the elevator outside
of labor and Delivery. Inside
was a man. I could tell he
was military by the haircut
and all. I scanned the buttons
which were not labeled and
asked the man which floor
is the lobby. He told me just
follow him he was headed there.
I said ok...
Now mind you I have a son
in the AF and a son-in-law
in the Navy. I am a 48 yr
old heavy set grandma and
I NEVER in my wildest dreams
would expect this kind of
shit to happen to ME and no
less in a Hospital ON a military
installation!!!!!
We rode the elevator down
and had small chat on the
way. I asked him if he worked
there (he was in shorts and
a tee-shirt). He told me no
he was a marine and I said
"oh stationed at Kaneohe"
he said yes and I said my
son-in-law is stationed there.
He seemed polite but didn't
start conversation unless
I did.
We got to the first floor
and the door opened and I
saw immediately it was NOT
the lobby there was a chain
link fence and cement floors
and all. I said to him this
is not the lobby and he said
follow him, it will get us
to the lobby. I didn't think
anything of it being lost
as I was now. I pushed Ashley
and we followed him..I remember
there were green walls...green
fiberglass like they were
doing construction or something.
He made the remark it was
a long walk. As We followed
him he suddenly stopped. He
was on my right. He turned
to me, shoved me into the
wall and grabbed my breast.
I was taken by total surprise.
I swung my hand and hit him
in the face and said something
to the effect "OH no you DON'T".
My slapping him surprised
Me and him. He backed up and
if looks could kill I would
be dead. I made him mad as
hell and that was more than
obvious. He stood glaring
at me for what seemed like
several minutes. Ashley in
her stroller was hysterical.
My first reaction was to lean
down and cover her mouth so
she would not draw his attention
to her. I stood frozen staring
at him as he glared at me
waiting to see what his next
move was going to be. IT seemed
like time stood still. His
eyes...I will NEVER forget
those eyes. Shortly after
a man in the camouflage uniform
with a military ball cap style
hat on ( I am told military
members are not to wear their
hats inside--and He had his
ON) came around the corner.
The marine took that opportunity
to take off. He walked the
opposite direction than we
came (headed towards the man)
and disappeared around the
corner. AS this man in uniform
passed me I got behind him
and followed him to yet another
set of elevators then Ashley
and I came down in. We rode
up with this man who did not
speak and I did not speak
to him. I just fumbled with
Ashley. We stopped and got
off where he did. It was the
Other side of the hospital
completely that I had entered
in originally with my Husband,
Daughter and Ashley.
I walked a little till I realized
I was in the Main lobby, then
I lost it. A couple was standing
talking and I asked them Please
( I was crying) tell me how
to get back to the parking
garage side of the hospital
lobby. The woman gave me directions.
TO this day I do not know
how I got there but my daughter
found Ashley and I walking
down the hall by the "refill
pharmacy". She was worried
asking me where I had been
I told her I didn't know.
We met up with Jim outside
and all walked to the parking
garage. Evy and Jim had been
looking all over for me, as
this was some 25 minutes later
till Evy found me. Evy had
also rode that elevator down
to the floor this happened
on and when the door opened
and she too saw the chain
link fence she said to herself
mom wouldn't come down here
and rode the elevator back
up. THANK god for that. I
do not know where that floor
goes to and had she gotten
out and started wandering
around 9 months pregnant that
man could have gotten her
too.
Anyway as we walked to the
garage they kept asking me
where were you and I didn't
know. I guess I was in shock.
They kept asking me are you
ok...are you having a heart
attack..what is wrong you're
white..how come you don't
talk to us. Once we reached
the 2nd floor of the parking
garage away from the hospital
I lost it and told them I
was attacked and I took off
running. I was in a panic.
Jim found me on the street
level. I was in such a panic.
They drove me up to the main
lobby we entered in and Evy
went to the main desk and
asked for security SEVERAL
times. A lone officer showed
up 25 minutes later and the
excuse was they were out looking
for my assailant. Funny no
one had a description of him
yet. He asked for the man's
info and I told him. He gave
me a police report and I told
him I would go home and fill
it out and bring it back I
was far to upset and then
having to sit there and wait
and wonder if this guy was
going to walk up to the car
or something. We left....went
home..the rest of the evening
was shot. Then I really came
unglued..thinking Oh my god
he could have killed me he
could have harmed my precious
granddaughter..OH MY GOD.
It was like reality was hitting
me. And I slapped him and
pissed him off.. What if that
military man hadn't come around
the corner. You hear about
this stuff but on TV or in
the paper yaw know..THIS WAS
NOT HAPPENING TO ME.
The next day I filled out
the report. Still upset as
best as I could. Then the
anger started and I told my
husband I wonder if that damn
general at Tripler knows about
this. So I decided to call
him. I wanted him to know
this happened. I called and
got his male secretary. Of
course they want to know why
I wanted to talk to him. I
told the man I was assaulted
the day before at that hospital
and I want the General to
KNOW. He told me the general
was busy and would call me
back. I asked him when that
would be..he told me the general
was a busy man and this did
not take priority and he would
call when he saw fit....I
WAS PISSED and hung up. I
told Jim about the conversation
and he in turn called back
and asked the man for the
General's Boss and told him
that what he had told me was
not sat. The man told him
he would have someone call
my husband back. Soon after
Major _____, the executive
officer, called seemingly
very concerned and genuine.
He started asking me questions
and I handed the phone to
Jim. Still uneasy about the
whole thing and talking about
it. He asked Jim to come up
and speak to him and Jim agreed.
My daughter also elected to
go up. They wanted me to stay
home and there was NO way
I was staying home alone.
We got to the general's office
and Major ______ and D____
the provost marshal were present.
They were told what happened.
I spoke very little and stayed
turned to my daughter almost
the whole time. Major _____
had told us that he would
see to it that I would receive
counseling and any medical
help I needed in Hawaii and
On the mainland for as long
as it took. Seemed fair enough
to us. In-fact several days
later, D_____ issued me a
Gov't ID card (with no expiration)
in order to for me gain entrance
to the base and other facilities
there and back on the mainland
which I still have. My husband
also asked that ALL women
in that facility be told of
this...so they can protect
themselves and be on the look
out. We were assured a in-house
email would go out that day.
3 days later when my grandson
was born I randomly asked
women that worked there if
they knew of this. NO ONE
WAS NOTIFIED. All the times
I had been at that hospital
I NEVER once saw any security
anywhere. We left there feeling
like things would be handled.
I Was told CID would be in
contact with me to take a
composite. That after noon
CID called and he wanted me
to come there. I told him
no my daughter was due to
give birth and if she didn't
she would be induced that
Friday. He refused to come
to her house to take the composite.
I told him we could meet at
Tripler Friday when she was
in labor. Once we got there
I decided it was not appropriate
to sit and do the composite--I
was there for a happy event
and to help Evy give birth.
I asked D_______ to call this
man and cancel it.
MY world was crushed. I was
there and my husband was there
for the homecoming of my son-in-law
having been away 6 months
to the middle east. We were
expecting the birth of Brandon
and we were all so excited.
Life couldn't have been better.
Then that happened...AND now
it has been a living hell.
I felt and still do so many
emotions...
I felt that all this put a
damper on the birth of my
grandson. Brandon was born
June 28th, 2002. Evy was so
SCARED because of this she
insisted her husband spend
the night with her after his
birth. Both of them sleeping
in a single hospital bed.
She and the baby came home
the next day and I think her
rushing it was the fear she
had of being in there because
of my attacker.
It was a good 3 weeks till
I heard back from anyone.
I called repeatedly and asked
for assistance (via D______)
for counseling. He finally
called me in and I was taken
to speak to a social worker.
NOT a counselor. My daughter's
friend who used to be a triage
nurse at Tripler escorted
me. She told the social worker
I needed to see a medical
doctor as I was not eating
or sleeping. A Dr. was brought
in stayed maybe 10 min and
prescribed to me sleeping
pills and anti depressants.
Then informed me I would have
to take them to a outside
pharmacy to have them filled.
I told them no Tripler was
supposed to and I was told
sorry!
No follow up appointments
were made. And nothing about
this was accomplished other
than the social worker "slipping"
and telling Brenda and I that
there had been a rape in the
parking garage not long ago
but that it was being handled.
She gave me hand outs to seek
treatment on the outside.
She told me to go to the navy
relief and ask for money assistance.
She told me to have MY insurance
pay for my care. She told
me to let the state of Hawaii
pick up the tab for the counseling
I would need. She told me
to have my son make me a dependant
so the Navy would pay for
this. Now I was MAD. This
was Tripler's problem and
Major ______ had told US that
All this would be handled
and PAID for by the Army.
I left and Brenda took me
home. She went out to get
my Rx filled and as I told
the story to my daughter she
got angry and called and spoke
to a military woman. Who called
back and said for me to take
my Rx to Tripler and they
would fill it. Little Too
late Brenda had gone to do
it.
D_____ was now on vacation
for a week. I heard from the
social worker the next day
and she asked how I was and
could I come back in that
day. I told her no that Chad
had the car and we had no
transportation. That was that.
No more contact from her.
I spoke with D_____ when he
got back and was very upset
about what had happened. I
called Major _____ who informed
me that the Army would pay
for 6 VISITS ONLY on a emergency
basis. THAT ISN'T WHAT HE
TOLD US IN OUR CONFERENCE.
I relayed this to D_____ and
also the fact that CID never
called me since before the
baby was born. Now going into
a month and NO composite taken.
D______ said he would look
into things. I got a call
from a M___ who was the CID
agent. Again they wanted me
to go to Scholfield and I
said No. They could come to
where I was. He was arguing
with me and I handed the phone
to Evy. She told him IF YOU
WANT TO SEE MY MOM YOU WILL
COME HERE PERIOD. That night
he came out. Handed me a report
and told me I needed to fill
it out. I had informed him
I did that via Tripler police
and he said he never got the
report. AND demanded I fill
out another one and my daughter
also. We did. (recently I
was informed that is how they
try to find holes in my story
comparing the two reports)
I finally left the island
scared and mad as hell. The
composite was ALL wrong the
guy had his weight as 180
to 120 and his hair color
as dark Own (brown) I demanded
they GET it right. Then I
was told Kaneohe police had
been notified. I called Kaneohe
Marine base and they knew
NOTHING of this (2 days before
I left and now was 2 months).
I have emailed EVERY person
I can with a gov address..congress..the
president..heads of the military
and NOTHING. I Got a call
in Washington from Hawaii
CID who basically wanted another
recount of the story--I handed
the phone to Jim. this has
been a on going nightmare
for me. I experience panic
attacks (especially when I
go into a elevator and someone
is in there)
My sleeping is non existent..my
eating is non existent. I
have experienced emotions
I have never experienced in
my life. I feel like I wrecked
an important day in my daughter's
life, the birth of their child.
It has caused a tremendous
strain on my marriage. My
husband feels guilt that he
was not there to prevent this.
I find I get angry at him..he
doesn't understand. He tries
to help but he can't . He
tells me to forget it, it
is over. NO it is not over
NO I can't forget it. I close
my eyes to sleep and I SEE
his. I hear Ashley screaming.
There is a fear inside me
that is unbelievable. I have
guilt that had I not gone
there it would have never
happened. I have "what if's"
that I cant flush from my
mind. I am mad as HELL that
the military takes NO responsibility
for this what so ever. AND
they promised they WOULD.
I have been experiencing medical
problems I am sure also is
because of this I feel like
a boat in the water with no
oar. I have gotten suicidal,
I have had so many raw emotions.
I want them TO STAND UP AND
TAKE RESPONSIBILITY. I have
yet to get counseling. it
is a trust issue at this point
sitting face to face with
a stranger and telling them
all this really bothers me.
I am working up the courage
to do so. People tell me I
am brave and courageous that
I slapped him. Nothing brave
about it. He grabbed me and
my immediate response was
ASHLEY.....ASHLEY my precious
ASHLEY..he isn't going to
do this to US. Now Ashley
is experiencing nightmares
she wakes up screaming NO
NOOOOOOOOO. Yes..he did do
this to us and I want to see
him caught so he won't do
this again....
Please Help!!
And the story continues--I
am proud to say the Stars
and Stripes Mil news paper
will be running a article
on this. FINALLY someone has
the guts to speak up! Now
maybe this guy will be caught!
I AM WRITING YOU ALL BECAUSE
THIS STORY NEEDS TO BE HEARD
BY all AMERICANS! All the
talk about "homeland security"
There isn't such a thing.
Please read on.... This is
to inform you all that the
inspector General in Hawaii
has sent a letter to my daughter's
house which is incorrect on
the facts and what appears
to be their way to cover this
up falsify documents and so
on--go figure! I think it
is time Tripler and the military
step up to the plate and take
responsibility for all this.
AND to this date my assailant
has not been caught and I
doubt very seriously the Army
is doing anything to catch
him! Thus endangering all
other women on Oahu! I am
frankly real tired of the
Military and Tripler blowing
this off like it is No big
deal! Now they are lying and
falsifying information saying
I was given 2 Sessions with
their social worker--LIE.
And that they called me several
times to make other appointments--LIE.
The Truth of the reality is
the Army could care less about
Protecting this country and
you and I! And the fact that
I am being "blown" off is
PROOF! GET MAD--get very mad....and
remember your government DOES
not care about you and I or
what happens on one of their
military facilities!
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